Even though I was a new parent, I had this intuition that something wasn’t right with my baby girl. Ryla’s head seemed too big for her body when I compared her to other babies. She also developed “café au lait” spots on her body which I assumed were just birthmarks but were actually a sign of an underlying condition. At six months old, Ryla was diagnosed with neurobromatosis, a rare genetic disorder that typically causes benign, slow-growing tumours on nerve tissue.
At ten months old, I noticed Ryla’s eye wasn’t tracking correctly. Our pediatrician didn’t see anything unusual, but he knew we needed to monitor Ryla closely because of her diagnosis, so he referred her to a pediatric ophthalmologist. Ryla’s condition changed quickly over the next month, and we ended up at SickKids before we even got to the appointment.
It started on Christmas day at my parents’ house. Ryla’s left eye was swollen and wouldn’t stop watering.
A few days later, she woke up from a nap, and we were shocked to see her eye had gone from blue to brown. My husband, Rob, and I rushed her to Credit Valley Hospital and then to emergency at SickKids
Ryla had a mass compressing her optic nerve, causing proptosis (bulging) and blood leaking into her eye. She needed an ultrasound and an MRI to uncover what the mass was and its exact location. The wait was excruciating for us and very uncomfortable for Ryla, who went 24 hours on IV nutrients only.
Finally, at 11 p.m. on New Year’s Eve, Ryla got her MRI, and a few hours later, we were told our baby had an inoperable brain tumour.
We were sent home with the knowledge that the next step would be chemotherapy, but because the quick growth of Ryla’s tumour was atypical, it would need to be evaluated by the tumour board at SickKids to determine the best course of treatment.
Typically, this type of tumour would not get biopsied because the procedure can cause blindness, but since her condition changed so quickly, the hospital staff felt the tumour was aggressive and wanted to know what they were dealing with. An optic nerve surgeon explained that he would try to go between the bone and eye to do the biopsy but warned us that he might need to remove some of her bone to get a clear path to the tumour.
We had to do something special for Ryla’s first birthday because we thought it might be the only one we would get to celebrate.
Ryla’s birthday occurred just a few days after the diagnosis and before the biopsy. We would not have made a big fuss because she was so young, but now that her future was uncertain, we couldn’t let it go by without marking the day.
While driving from Toronto to our home in Streetsville, our friends and family rallied to decorate the house, and we had a huge celebration. It was incredibly touching to see the beginning of our support network forming.
It took about two weeks, but the biopsy showed that the cancer was not as aggressive as they had feared.
Ryla was approved for a clinical trial that included weekly chemotherapy at the hospital, but the results were not promising for her. She was approved for a second clinical trial involving a daily oral medication, but they had to alter the recommended dose to try to avoid any damage to her liver. It worked! Her tumour stabilized as long as she was on the medication, but started to grow again when the clinical trial ended. Luckily, she has been granted compassionate access to the clinical trial chemo which she continues today.
“It was hard to hear that Ryla was blind in one eye, but when the doctors told us they couldn’t resect the tumour to prevent it from spreading to her right eye, it was devastating. Removing her left eye will make her more comfortable, but we need to rely on the chemotherapy to protect the vision she has. It makes her future uncertain.”
As life shattering as this has been for us over the last 4.5 years, Ryla takes it (mostly) in stride. She is an inquisitive, smart, sassy kid. Ryla is always happy to go to the POGO Satellite Clinic at Credit Valley Hospital near our house—she loves the toys, and the staff make her feel like a superstar. She has even learned to advocate for herself—letting them know that she doesn’t want eye drops if they aren’t necessary and asking for the child life specialist when she feels vulnerable.
The road has been and continues to be very rocky. As Ryla got older, she started to grasp that other kids don’t have to go to the hospital all the time.
And when she started school, it became starkly apparent to her that she looks different from everyone else. Her classmates would ask, “Why do you have one big eye and one little eye?” Arvinder, our POGO Interlink Nurse, came to Ryla’s school and explained to her class that everyone is unique. Some people look different because they have different colour hair, eyes or skin. She taught the students how to ask Ryla questions that wouldn’t make her feel bad, and Ryla feels more comfortable and loves going to school. Arvinder also advocated for a special needs EA in the classroom and a therapist for Ryla.
POGO has been with our family from the start. When Ryla was diagnosed, a POGO Interlink Nurse was assigned to help us navigate the challenges ahead. I have been on maternity leave and critical illness leave since Ryla was born, so our income has decreased significantly, but our expenses have increased. When you spend several days in a row at the hospital, you buy food and other things that you wouldn’t have to if you were at home. Our POGO Interlink Nurse pointed us to resources like the POGO Financial Assistance Program to help pay for out-of-pocket costs. And having a POGO Satellite Clinic so close to home cuts down on the cost of gas and, more importantly, helps us maintain some semblance of regular life. When Ryla has a fever, the POGO Satellite Clinic is our first stop. This minimizes the disruption in our lives and allows us more family time. We are not out of the woods yet. Ryla’s second surgery has not been scheduled yet, and we don’t know what post-surgery will look like, but we know our POGO supports will help us get through it.